Day 101 of 365 Consecutive Days of Meditation

It’s kind of amazing how the smallest things can add up to something bigger.

For instance, I recently read about someone who meditated every day for a year. A simple thing, a simple sentence, sparked a thought in me. That thought was, “I would like to meditate every day for a year.”

101 days in and I’ve learned that my mind (as are all minds) is very creative. Time meditating, leads to many varied insights and feelings. The question for me, then became how to manage insights and feelings because they aren’t always pleasant.


Thanks to the internet, I read about mind waves yesterday, at the above and below link, this in particular resonated with me:

When you are practicing zazen, do not try to stop your thinking. Let it stop by itself. If something comes into your mind, let it come in, and let it go out. It will not stay long. When you try to stop your thinking, it means you are bothered by it. Do not be bothered by anything. It appears as if something comes from outside your mind, but actually it is only the waves of your mind, and if you are not bothered by the waves, gradually they will become calmer and calmer… In five or at most ten minutes, your mind will be completely serene and calm. At that time your breathing will become quite slow, while your pulse will become a little faster. It will take quite a long time before your find your calm, serene mind in your practice. Many sensations come, many thoughts or images, arise, but they are just waves of your own mind.

Do you meditate? Are you aware of your mind waves? Are you accepting of them? I think the next 100 days of my practice will be devoted to accepting, not fighting the waves and allowing them space to calm down, I invite you to join me.

If you have a smartphone, a great app is insight timer, I highly recommend it,  it’s free and it has an incredible database of guided meditations and a user friendly timer option as well:



Songbird Sparkle (April Barnhart MDiv)




Long before Beyonce’s fabulous album, “Lemonade” which by the way is an amazing collaborative piece of art which has inspired countless other works of art including this:

I was a newlywed, in 2007, with a sign in my kitchen that read “Make Lemonade.” Sometimes when I have moments of clarity I can appreciate that past me was doing my best to make sense of and navigate the bitter and sweet aspects to life. Now as I dig further into aromatherapy I can’t deny that lemon is one of my favorite scents. Pair it with Lavender and C’est Magnifique!


Dark Citrus Oil Painting by Emily Christoff

A poem that does an amazing job of wrestling with the bitter and sweet:


A favorite Lemon song:

I hope this post will uplift and inspire you, as that is how the scent of lemons makes me feel, may you be equipped to:



Grace, Peace, Star/Sun Light and Love,

Songbird Sparkle: April Barnhart MDiv

Pro (found) Excerpts from “The Call”

Excerpts from “The Call”

All credit goes to: Oriah Mountain Dreamer

p.13 I misunderstood. I assumed not-doing meant doing nothing- staring at a wall or sleeping- and there was precious little time for this in my life. Of course, even when we sit and stare at a wall or lie in bed sleeping we are usually doing something. We are thinking, feeling and sensing if only in our dreams.  But not-doing does not depend on whether or not my body is moving or my mind is active. Not-doing is about letting any movement flow from an awareness of the deep and ever-present stillness that is what I am at the most essential level of being. It is here, in the awareness of my essential nature, that I find the meaning I seek in my life, not as an idea or an ideal but as an implicit knowing folded into my very being.


p.46 Learning to simply be with what is and so finding the still center, if only for a moment, shifts things, lets us be with our feelings instead of being unconsciously led around by them. With the perspective offered by deep stillness, I can see the big picture. I may still experience discomfort and sometimes pain, but when I do it does not feel life-threateningly unbearable.


p.75 (translated Rumi poem) The mystery does not get clearer by repeating the question, Nor is it bought with going to amazing places. Until you have kept your eyes and your wanting still for fifty years, you don’t begin to cross over from confusion.


p.95 Quote from Zen master Suzuki Roshi: We don’t need to learn to let go. We just need to recognize what is already gone.

p.128-129 While achieving goals can bring temporary satisfaction, it can never replace the need to know the meaning found in experiencing what we are


p.139 Let yourself be one of the God-mad, faithful only to the Beauty you are.